I know that at the time I wanted to be a "cool goth person" (please say I'm not the only one who went through this phase? XD) but at the same time wanted to be a Venus Angelic copy. I have been told I look like a doll by a few people, and since she also did I thought it would be a very good thing to do, because any type of alternative clothing=cool at that point. I had seen pictures of gothic lolita in my searchings on how to be goth, although I didn't realize it. I also had read the term a few times but didn't really pay attention... I did buy a skirt in an attempt to mimic it, although I didn't know what lolita was at the time and thought it was just goth.
The turning point in my journey towards the dark side is when I walked past the Angelic Pretty Shanghai store! It was so cute, I think they had honey cake on the display (it became my first dream dress) and I fell in love. My family was making fun of it and I was embarrassed because they were laughing at me for liking it and saying something about me wanting to be "angelic pretty and look like a baby", so I felt embarrassed and didn't go in. I wouldn't have bought anything anyway, if you don't realize that AP is a nice brand, and you expect clothes to be cheap since you are in China (not meaning to offend...), you aren't going to spend hundreds of dollars on a pastel dress from some random store. Especially when I think about the fact that my parents used to think $30 was expensive for a dress for me, and they bought my clothes. I buy my own clothes now (except the "practical" things they want me to own). Anyway, I became a lot more interested in the Venus Angelic kawaii-y side of stuff after that and then I saw a picture of sweet lolita and recognized it as being like that cute store in China. I spent a few months researching lolita before I made my first "lolita" outfit. I found a picture on my computer the other day which is what inspired me to start this topic, and it's truly awful haha. I would share the picture except it doesn't look anything like lolita and I dont know how I thought it was. What embarrasses me is that this was only a year or two ago -_-
Oh gosh that's long haha. Sorry!