Im sure almost none of you remember who I am but I used to be a very active member on here about......geez....7 or 8 years ago and I pop up every now and again and I just want to say, how much I miss this lifestyle.
I remember when daily lolita was created and how everyone loved and envyed the oregon lolitas (Im really dating myself here lol) and every sunday when loli-secret had a new post and there was ALWAYS some stupid drama about a post. And then loli-valentines was created and it just made everyones heart all fuzzy and wam inside, even if it wasnt about them. Just the fact that people posted love for random strangers boosted everyones self confidence. And the world just kept growing and growing and growing.......
I left the community for about 2 or 3 years straight while still dressing lolita every now and again, because the stress of worrying about what everyone thought about my ouftit wasnt worth it because, I liked to break a lot of the rules and do strange out of the book coordinates (which, I find everyone loves nowadays, which is awesome! lol) and I knew I looked fabulous so I didnt care about the approval of anyone else. Plus, I never repeated an outfit and only dressed lolita every now and again because I started running out of money to buy anything new so I didnt feel active enough either.
Then I came back to this community and egl_comm every now and again, just to see what was up, and it was evolving so much I just couldnt handle it. I started going to meetups less frequently and just stopped going altogether. Not because I was scared or any of that, I was just growing up and starting college, and couldnt focus on lolita anymore. I still went to conventions every year and dressed in my lolita best, which was great, but that was about it. The past three years I went to the october orchard meetups we had, once a year for two years and this past year ive been to about....2 or 3 meetups. Its usually very last minute and Ill get a notification on facebook of someone saying "Excited for tomorrow"! And Ill check my work scheduale and if I have it off, Ill usually go and I just have a fabulous time every time I go. And it just amazes me how WELL people on a budget can dress nowadays because I never had that when I first started. You HAD to go through a shopping service if you wanted ANYTHING, Except Baby but had to email them personally for your order. Its just odd for me to think how far this fashion has come in less than 10 years, and Im REALLY having a hard time catching up after having been gone for so long.
Whats even worse is, I dont even know if this post is allowed anymore because all the rules on my once beloved communities are so different and unaccepting that Im afraid that this post is going to get chewed out or deleted. Which, to me, is really sad because I dont even know how any of these communities I used to basically live my life on, work anymore. Idk, maybe its because Im growing up and what not, and so far, being an adult sucks. I have basically no money, Im living check by check even though I live rent free, and I absolutely refuse to sell my lolita clothes even though I could make a very pretty penny off of everything. But isnt that the point of lolita? Never wanting to grow up and be a princess forever and to have a sort of escape from 21st century life?
So anyway, what this post is mainly about is a chance for the older members to reminisce and talk in the comments about old times and for current members to say how they feel about this community, what it means to them and to maybe help me out a little on whats current right now. What are good shopping services now adays, how they work, what are good budget lolita sites and how they work (listen to me, I sound like a complete noob now) how you keep up with current styles, fun sites that every lolita you think you should have, music you listen to. Basically what sites you think helped YOU become a lolita.
I know there are plenty of links in the memories section, but what I want this post to be about mainly is just people sharing what they personally feel lolita is nowadays. I dont even care if I get no links at all, I just want people to share their personal feelings about the lifestyle they love so very much.
For those of you who are touched by this entry and really would like to help me out, even become friends, Im on tumblr ALL the time now so if you message me, ask me a question anon or not etc, at http://princess-pinkie.tumblr.com/ I would really love it :) If you arent touched or even phased by this entry at all, thats fine. go about your life how you want, I obviously wont stop you :P
I just want you all to know that no matter how hard you try, if you truely have a passion for lolita like I do, it will never leave your heart and yes, you will be a lolita for the rest of your life. :) <3
I love you all for sharing this amazing fashion with me, even if Ive never met you or talked to you, just know, that I.Love.You. For you share a passion in my life, and I love anyone I can share it with.
A lolita trapped in time.
p.s. even though it doesnt seem like it, I REALLY put my heart into this entry and rereading it over Im almost in tears. In case any of you care to know lol